Ok well... 5/6

I don't know if I had an official date for Week 5, but it's been a little murky. Friday night (the last night of Week 5), Stretch came over and watched a movie with me. We went to Taco Bell and Whataburger, because fuck it, we're adults and we can get food from 2 fast food places if we want. Watched a Western, sent him home. That was Week 5. Nothing special, but I am kinda starting to like him a little, so that's exciting.

Saturday night would have been the start of Week 6, and that's when I got stood up by Actor. Sunday was my birthday, and Stretch came over for my Super Bowl party, and it was nice. I guess I'll call that my Week 6 date? Actor texted me super late Sunday night, and I didn't respond because I had already gone to bed. He said some weird jealous-type things on Monday that really made me dislike him. Thursday night I saw Stretch again, and we sang karaoke with his friends. Good times all around, and he is really funny. Buuut then tonight (Saturday), Actor wanted to hang out, so I did for a little bit. We watched a western, drank some wine, and I went home.

Here's the thing that's bugging me. Sometimes crushes should just stay crushes. I don't know if I want to date my crush, because I'm pretty sure my idea of him is better than what he's really like. That's just the feeling I have in general, and it has prevented me from pursuing relationships in the past. But this time, thanks in part to this resolution, I decided to try and date my crush, and guess what? I was disappointed. I don't really care to elaborate, but the hint of jealousy is just the tip of the iceberg, I think, and ain't nobody got time for that.